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i’m a badass girl in this messed up world
i’m a sexy girl in this crazy world
i’m a simple girl in a complex world
a nasty girl, you wanna get with me?
you wanna mess with me?
(autobiography, ashlee simpson)

i wanna be that person again, the one i am right now, again
for the rest of my life, again i wanna lay down in the leaf pile, but i can’t
(leaf pile, the front bottoms)

i’m still a believer but i don’t know why
i’ve never been a natural, all i do is try try try
i’m still on that trapeze, i’m still trying everything
to keep you looking at me
(mirrorball, taylor swift)

one more shot, then i’m quitting forever
cross my heart, cross my fingers
i’m not just drunk, i really think i’m in love with you
you’re standing up with your arms crossed, nose turned up like you’re saying “impress me, good luck,” and i don’t have to prove myself to you
(run dry (X heart X fingers)/cryptozoology, patrick stump)

waiting for a deus ex, in line to be your next ex
what if i don’t want to live like that? am i just a lab rat
doing what’s done to me doesn’t sound fun to me
i am not the subject, i am the experiment, i’m a mad scientist
(press restart, walk the moon)

just how many stars will i need to hang around me to finally call it heaven?
’cause i need somebody to remember my name
after all that i can do for them is done i need someone to remember me
(remember my name, mitski)

i’m not lonely babe, i am free
(cinnamon, hayley williams)

you’re nothing like me! you’re nothing like me! you’re nothing like me! you’re nothing like me! you’re nothing like me!
(just like me, new politics)

you were in a cardigan sweater with your horn-rimmed glasses on
can’t see the world without them
living in the pages of a book she read, i sewed a farewell letter with a needle and thread and i called in sick for good
(art school girlfriend, andrew mcmahon in the wilderness)

3, 2, 1, we came to fuck!
(vampire money, my chemical romance)

but now i’m over my head acting like i never started over again
i am the city i’m from, always wanting more than just a word on my arm
by the time i turned 25, i was lost along the pavement, lower than the basement and i couldn’t stand to smile, i thought of taking my own life
(ahha, nate ruess)

maybe when i’m done with thinking, maybe you can think me whole
if you could be my punk rock princess, i would be your garage band king
(punk rock princess, something corporate)

they say, “you’re a little much for me, you’re a liability, you’re a little much for me”
so they pull back, make other plans, i understand, i’m a liability
get you wild, make you leave
the truth is i am a toy that people enjoy ’til all of the tricks don’t work anymore and then they are bored of me
(liability, lorde)

i’ve been pounding on the floor and i’ve been crawling up the walls and i’ve been dipping in my darkness for serotonin boosters, cider and some kind of smelling salts
(recovery, frank turner)

everyone is better than me, i think everyone is better than, better than me, everyone is better than, better than me
(better than me, the brobecks)

don’t hold your breath, i never said i’d save you honey and i don’t want your money
if i was you i would run from me or rip me open, you’ll see you’re not the only one who’s hopeless
think it’s safe to say your savior doesn’t look a thing like me
(idle worship, paramore)

i don’t smoke except for after i’ve held you, baby
(i don’t smoke, mitski)

you are formidable to me ’cause you seem to know it, where you wanna go
yeah, i’ll follow you, but you should know i might be cynical towards you
i’m just worried my loyalty will bore you
(formidable, twenty one pilots)

i love people i don’t like and i hate every song i write and i’m not cool and i’m not smart and i can’t even parallel park
(brutal, olivia rodrigo)

i am the light, i am the truth, i am the way
(nothing personal, night riots)

i want to take care of you when everybody’s gone
i want to make the money ’til there’s no more to be made and we will be so wealthy, i’m absolved from questioning that all my bad behavior was just a necessary strain
(savage good boy, japanese breakfast)

the good thing about this cast is i can still hold a knife
(funny you should ask, the front bottoms)

“i’d die for you,” that’s easy to say, we have a list of people that we would take a bullet for them
metaphorically, i’m the man but literally, i don’t know what i’d do
“i’d live for you” and that’s hard to do, even harder to say when you know it’s not true
even harder to write when you know it’s a lie, there were people back home who tried talking to you but then you ignore them still, all these questions, they’re for real, like “who would you live for?””who would you die for?” and “would you ever kill?”
(ride, twenty one pilots)

i’m not your holy ghost
i’m not your savior, a glimpse of your maker
(holy ghost, coin)

i’ve never needed god, i think i kinda knew that all along
let’s move far away from here when i finally get my degree and we’ll live happily, get some rescue dogs in a house by the sea, and i promise i’ll take care of you if you promise to let me
(the omen, camp cope)

is it insensitive for me to say “get your shit together so i can love you?”
is it really your anxiety that stops you from giving me everything or do you just not want to?
there was nowhere for me to stay, but i stayed anyway
(renegade, big red machine feat. taylor swift)

I’ll believe you if you make me feel something
(faith healer, julien baker)

wasn’t a fighter ’til somebody told me I had better learn to lean into the punch so it don’t hurt as bad when they leave
I’m in the back seat of my body
(stay down, boygenius)

I never touched you how I wanted to
I want you to tell me that you miss me, want you to hold and hurt and kiss me
(triple dog dare, lucy dacus)

I’m a nervous wreck! I’m a nervous wreck! I’m a nervous wreck! I’m a n-n-nervous wreck!
(west coast smoker, fall out boy)

one day we’ll get nostalgic for disaster
I love you in the same way there’s a chapel in a hospital, one foot in your bedroom and one foot out the door
sometimes we take chances, sometimes we take pills, I could write it better than you ever felt it
(hum hallelujah, fall out boy)

from day one I talked about getting out but not forgetting about how my worst fears are letting out
he said why put a new address on the same old loneliness when breathing just passes the time until we all just get old and die
(get busy living or get busy dying, fall out boy)

I want a love that falls as fast as a body form the balcony and I want a kiss like my heart is hitting the ground
I am not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be
(townie, mitski)

I’m sick of the things I do when I’m nervous like cleaning the oven or checking my tires or counting the number of tiles on the ceiling
I used to rely on self-medication, I guess I still do that from time to time
(everything is alright, motion city soundtrack)

I’m alive but I don’t need a witness to know that I survived
the bars are finally closed so I tried living in the moment ’til the moment it just froze and I felt sick and so alone
(the resolution, jack’s mannequin)

give me everything good, I’ll throw it away
I wish I could quit but I can’t stand the shakes
I think there’s a God and he hears either way and I rejoice and complain
(rejoice, julien baker)

when you watch me throwing punches at the devil, it just looks like I’m fighting with me
singing too loud in church, screaming my fears into speakers ’til I collapse or I burst, whichever comes first
tell me you loved me, I wanted so bad to believe it
(shadowboxing, julien baker)

I can live without you but without you I’d be miserable at best
(miserable at best, mayday parade)

sweetness never suits me
when did I grow up?
I don’t want to say too much
(midnight coward, stars)

(famous last words, my chemical romance)

when I wake up, I’m afraid somebody else might take my place
if you leave me, then I’ll be afraid of everything that makes me anxious, gives me patience, calms me down, lets me face this, let me sleep and when I wake up let me be
(afraid, the neighbourhood)

have you ever wanted to disappear?
but you know me: I like being all alone and keeping you all alone
(20 dollar nose bleed, fall out boy)